THE WRONG TRAP

 

 

WHEN ARE YOU IN CHARGE?

ALL OF THE TIME?

SOME OF THE TIME?

NONE OF THE TIME?

 

WHEN ARE YOU IN CHARGE OF YOU?

ALL OF THE TIME.

 

WHAT HAVE YOU LET GO?

WHAT WHEEL ARE YOU ON?

DO YOU BLAME YOURSELF?

 

YOU SHOULD REMEMBER THAT OTHER PEOPLE BLAME YOU TOO. BLAME IS A TRICKLING RESPONSE TO SOMEONE BLAMING YOU FOR SOMETHING. THE GIFT THAT KEEPS ON GIVING.

 

This idea does not belong to the soul, it belongs to the idea”

Charles Saunders Dean’

 

‘The Buck Stops Here’

‘Fucking Everyone’

 

IF WE TAKE ‘THE BUCK’ TO MEAN RESPONSIBILITY FOR A FUCK UP THEN ‘THE BUCK’ MOVES AROUND A LOT AND IT ONLY STOPS IN ONE PLACE; WHERE EVERYONE ELSE SAYS IT DOES.

 

BETTER TO BE IN CHARGE OF EVERYTHING OR NOTHING

MIDDLE MANAGEMENT GET SQUASHED LIKE GRAPE!

EVERYONE’S RIGHT

EVERYONE’S WRONG

ALL THE TIME

RIGHT?

RIGHT?

TO TRULY FIND OUT WHAT MATTERS

TRY MIND OVER MIND

 

TRY TO RIGHT THE WRONG TRAP

 

CAN YOU REMIND YOURSELF AND AGREE WITH YOURSELF

THAT YOU ABSOLUTELY KNOW

THAT THERE IS MORE TO KNOW

THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW

THAT WHAT YOU KNOW TO BE RIGHT

RIGHT NOW MIGHT BE WRONG IN TIME

 

EASY AS AN ABSTRACT THOUGHT

TELL IT TO THE JUDGE IN COURT

 

 

EVERYONE FROM ‘GHENGIS KHAN’ TO ‘PABLO ESCOBAR’ BELIEVED THEY WERE RIGHT. THING IS, A LOT OF PEOPLE AGREED WITH THEM. THE UNOFFICIAL KING OF ‘COLOMBIA’ BUILT SCHOOLS. IN ‘MEDALLIN’ ‘ESCOBAR’ WAS A, MOSTLY, BENEVOLENT PHAROE

FROM ‘CHARLIE MANSON’S’ POINT OF VIEW, ‘CHARLIE’ WAS RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING. THE FORCE THAT DRIVES A SINGLE BEING TO CREATE A DYNASTY MUST BE THE MOST INTOXICATING OF ELIXIRS.

I DO A NICE LINE IN POLEMICS.

STEP UP. POP IN FOR MEDICINE.

 

 

To live fully is to live with an awareness of the rumble and terror that underlies everything”

Ernest Becker’

 

BACK WHEN WE WERE ANIMALS WE HAD LOTS OF FEELINGS THAT KEPT US ALIVE. BACK THEN FAT AND SUGAR KEPT US ALIVE THOSE FEELINGS ARE STILL THERE, THEY ARE STILL REAL. AT A CELLULAR LEVEL LIFE IS ALL ABOUT GETTING OXYGEN AND GLUCOSE IN AND OUT FOR AS LONG AS YOU CAN.

SOME SPIDERS COMBINE BIRTH,DEATH, MARRIAGE AND LUNCH.

ANY BEE WILL TELL YOU TO STICK WITH THE ‘ME TOO’ MOVEMENT LIKE HONEY.

EVER SINCE WE BECAME SELF AWARE OF OUR OWN MORTALITY THAT THOUGHT HAS BECOME AN IRK THAT WE ALL HAVE OUR WHOLE LIVES TO DEAL WITH.

FOR MOST PEOPLE JUST LIVING THEIR LIVES AS BEST THEY CAN, TO DO AS LITTLE HARM TO OTHERS, TO HELP AND TO HAVE NICE PEOPLE SAY NICE THINGS ABOUT THEM AT THEIR FUNERAL IS ENOUGH.

JUST LIKE WANTING SUGAR AND FAT AND KNOWING IT IS BAD FOR YOU, WE HAVE EVOLVED TO A POINT WHERE THE GRATIFICATION FROM KNOWING YOU HAVE A LEGACY IS AS TASTY AS A RIB DRIPPING IN CHIPOTLE SAUCE AND JUST AS BAD FOR YOUR HEART.

‘BILL GATES’ WILL DIE KNOWING THAT HE REVOLUTIONISED THE WORLD IN THE SAME WAY ‘EINSTEIN’, ‘BRUNEL’, ‘GALILEO’, ‘DANTE’, ‘CONSTANTINE’, ‘JESUS’, ‘MOHAMMED’ AND ‘LENNON’ AND ‘MCCARTNEY’ CHANGED THE WORLD.

‘DONALD TRUMP’ WILL DIE HAPPY KNOWING EVERYONE KNOWS HIS NAME.

ASK ‘TESLA’ WHAT HE THOUGHT OF ‘EDISON’

 

FROM THE FIRST TIME YOU TODDLE TO A WALL WITH A CRAYON

TO WHATEVER YOU OGLE AND SPRAY YOUR FLAGRANCE ON

THE CONSEQUENCES OF WHAT YOU ARE REMEMBERED FOR WILL BE OF NO CONSEQUENCE TO YOU

HOW ABOUT ‘GHANDI’, ‘MANDELLA’ OR MCGUINNES’?

THOSE WHO HAVE LED AND FOUGHT FOR PROGRESSION OF PARITY IN SOCIETY TEND TO COME WITH THEIR OWN POLITICAL BAGGAGE…AND FOLLOWERS.

 

“MAKE ‘AMERICA’ GREAT AGAIN”

‘Donald Trump’

 

“The great and the good will decide what is good for us and make sure that we get what is good for us, good and hard.”

‘Nigel Farrage’

 

I’ve learned something too; selling out is sweet because when you sell out; you get to make a lot of money and when you have money; you don’t have to hang out with a bunch of poor asses like you guys. Screw you guys, I’m going home.

‘Eric Cartman’

 

DID MARTIN LUTHER DIE IN VAIN…YOU ALL BETTER STOP AND THINK”

‘Nina Simone’

 

TWITTER WOULD BE JUST AS SUCCESSFUL, MORE ACCURATE AND, MORE IMPORTANTLY, BETTER FOR THE PSYCHE OF THE WORLD IF ‘FOLLLOWERS’ TO ‘SHEEP’? NO THAT DOESN’T WORK, ‘CHOOSERS?’, NOPR, STILL SUCKED IN.’DEMOCRATIC OPINIONATORS?’, ‘POCKET JUDGE, JURY AND EXECUTIONERS’? ‘MIND FARTERS?’ 

IF A TREE FALLS IN THE WOODS AND NO ONE IS THERE TO TWEET IT…

‘VINCENT VAN GOUGH’, THE ‘PAUL GASCOIGNE’ OF ART, WORKED AS A COURIER, DELIVERING RELATIVE INSIGNIFICANCE ACROSS NATIONS, HE HAD NO REGARD FOR CAREER OR SELF-AGGRANDISEMENT. HE WAS SIMPLY RIDDLED, DRIVEN BY A COMPULSION TO CREATE SOMETHING INCOMPARABLY ORIGINAL.

Do not ever confuse simple with easy.

HE WASN’T TRYING TO REVOLUTIONISE ART, YET HE DID.

HIS ACTIONS, HIS COMPULTIONS TO CREATE VERSUS HIS NEED TO SURVIVE WAS TORTUROUS. NO AMOUNT OF MONEY OR FAME WOULD HAVE SOLVED THAT PROBLEM. 

‘KURT COBAIN’ FOUND THE LOSS OF HIS OWN ANONYMITY TO HIGH A PRICE FOR WHAT HE DID NOT INTEND TO ACCOMPLISH.

IT IS THOSE THAT SEEK GLORY IN POWER THAT SHOULD MAKE US WARY. HISTORY USED TO BE WRITTEN BY THE WINNERS BECAUSE THE BIG PEN IS PART OF THE PRIZE.

WELL, ‘FACE BOOK’ HAS ALL THE LATEST UPDATES ON THAT SNAKE EATING IT’S OWN TAIL.

THE INTERNET HAS BURNED THE CITADEL

RAZED IT TO THE GROUND

‘FAKE NEWSED’ IT TO FIERY FUCKING HELL

NOTHING TO BE FOUND

ONE FLICK OF THE CHANEL AND WE FORGET THAT WE ARE STILL PART OF HISTORY. 

 

THE SENTENCE YOU ARE READING NOW WAS ORIGINALLY WRITTEN NOW; FOR ME

TWO FIXED POINTS IN TIME ALIGNING TWO THOUGHTS WITH WORDS

JUST NOW

WONDER WHERE YOU ARE NOW?

THO GODS FROM TWO DIFFERENT LITTLE UNIVERSES IN TWO UNKNOWN MOMENTS TRANSFERRING AN IDEA

DO WE AGREE?

THIS IS THE BATTLE 

THIS IS WHERE YOU BEWARE OF THE WRONG TRAP

THIS IS WHERE YOU REMIND YOURSELF THAT, DESPITE WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE, ABSOLUTLY NO ONE ELSE IN THE WORLD SEES YOU THAT WAY

WE RULE BY CONCENSUS 

IT’S NOT WHO YOU SAY YOU ARE, IT’S WHO WE SAY YOU ARE

IT’S NOT WHAT YOU KNOW

IT’S NOT WHO YOU KNOW

IT’S WHO ‘KNOWS’ YOU

THIS IS WHERE YOU BEWARE THE WRONG TRAP

THE ONE YOU MAY NOT YET KNOW YOU ARE IN

THE ONE THEY DIDN’T TELL YOU ABOUT THAT AT THE TIME

THE ONE THAT PINS YOU WITH REGRET OR SHAME

THE ONE WHERE THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY OUT

 

FRITZ

 

 

 

 

 

Fritz

THE SPIRIT OF ‘CATFORD’

WHENEVER I SEE HIM I GIVE HIM MY TIME, MY MONEY AND I SAY A LITTLE PRAYER

NOT FOR HIM, FOR ME, ‘THERE BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOD, (OR WHATEVER HIGHER POWERE YOU MAY OR MAY NOT BELIEVE IN), GO I’

THINK OF SOMEONE WORSE OFF THAN YOU. HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THEM. PITY?

SUDDENLY SOMEONE YOU HAVE FELT SORRY FOR BITES YOUR HAND

SO YOU’RE THERE FEELING ALL GENEROUS AND BENEVOLENT, FEELING SORRY FOR ‘FRITZ’, GIVING HIM YOUR, WELL EARNED, TIME AND HE SAYS,

“Listen ‘bruv’,

I know, I know, I know, I know

Dat ahhhhhhmm

Dat ahhhhhhmm

Listen

I know, I know,

Dat ahhhhhhmm

I know, I know, I know, I know

Dat ahhhhhhmm…

You take advantage of the people that love you.”

 

A HARD DRIVE THAT NEEDS A CLEAN UP 

DO NOT ARGUE WITH SOMEONE WHO PITIES YOU

REMEMBER THE TERMS OF THE RELATIONSHIP ARE NOT EQUAL

REMEMBER THIS PERSON SEES YOU AS A LESSER

 

REMEMBER THIS PERSON’S WHOLE WAY OF BEING IS SEWN INTO THE IMPORTANCE THAT THEY REALLY ARE RIGHT AND YOU, AS A LESSER, IN DISAGREEING WITH THEM, SIMPLY HAVE TO BE WRONG

 

IF THIS PERSON CONSIDERED YOU A PEER, YOU WOULD BE A VOICE OF REASON TO BE RESPECTED AND CONSIDERED WITHIN THE DISCOURSE OF DISAGREEMENT

 

NOPE

TURNS OUT YOU ARE AN AFFRONT TO THE NATURAL ORDER

YOUR IDEAS ARE TRANSGRESSIONS

YOUR WORDS; THREATS

YOUR FOUL, CONTRARY, FOLLIES MUST BE VANQUISHED

YOU ARE IN THE WRONG TRAP

THE POWER OF THE PERMANENTLY RIGHT HAS SPOKEN

IT DIDN’T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT

SO WHEN YOU LOSE ANOTHER ARGUMENT, WHILE YOU ARE; RECONSIDERING YOUR VOICES, QUESTIONING YOUR MOTIVES, QUESTIONING YOUR VALUES AND REREASONING THE MINUTIAE OF REVELATIONS AND REVOLUTIONS…

THE WINNER IS BACK HOME; STILL FEELING SORRY FOR YOU WHILE GORGING IN THE GLORY OF VICTORY, THE WINNER IS BACK HOME, STILL FEELING SORRY FOR YOU WHILE GORGING IN THE GLORY OF VICTORY, EATING ‘CHEESY WOTSITS’ AND WONDERING WHY HIS DICK IS ORANGE.

 

LIKE A LOOSE CHAIN ON A BIKE

THAT SLIPS WHEN YOU RIDE

IT’S BROKEN

MAN IT’S BROKEN

 

WINNERS ARE INVESTED IN BEING RIGHT, WHOULD YOU WANT TO GIVE THAT UP?

SO WHILE YOU WASTE MORE TIME EXAMINING YOUR OWN CONSCIENCE, THE WINNER IS OUT THERE TELLING AS MANY PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE THE TRUTH.

CEMENTING HISTORY

 

YOU KNOW THAT SUBJECTIVE REALITY DEMANDS THAT EVERYONE IS RIGHT AND WRONG AT THE SAME TIME

SO DO THEY, HOWEVER, IT DOES NOT APPLY IN YOUR CASE

YOU ARE A LESSER

YOUR OPINION IS LESS VALID

YOU ARE NOT VALID

 

IT IS WHAT IS EXPECTED OF YOU

YOU HAVE NO PEERS TO PROTEST TO

SLAVE

GO ALONG OR GET ALONG

PLAYGROUND BULLY

YOU ARE A DISAPPOINTMENT FOR DISAGREEING

YOUR BLEATS ARE DULY DISREGARDED

WALKING AWAY DOES NOT WORK

WAILING AWAY THE WATERWORKS

WASTES AWAY THE HURT

AS THE ABDICATION OF DIGNITY BECOMES THE NORM

DIGNITY REQUIRES DIGNITY

SEE HOW THE WRONG SHUNS THE COMPANY OF THE RIGHT 

IF ONLY HE’D AGREE WITH EVERYTHING WE TOLD HIM TO AGREE WITH

HE WOULD STAY THERE FOR US WHERE WE NEED HIM

SUCH A SHAME

THE RIGHT CANNOT COMPREHEND THEIR PART IN YOUR DEFENESTRATION

OFFENDED AT YOUR ABROGATION

OBLIGED TO REINFORCE EVERYTHING WRONG ABOUT YOU

TO EXCULPATE THEIR VIRTUE

 

ESCAPING THE WRONG TRAP IS NOT EASY

REALISING YOU ARE IN IT IS THE START

 

IF ONLY

JUST

BEING RIGHT WAS ENOUGH

YOU ARE ONLY RIGHT WHEN EVERYONE AGREES WITH YOU

 

IF BEING RIGHT WAS EASY

YOU WOULDN’T BE IN THE WRONG TRAP

 

HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN THERE?

THINK BACK

THINK BACK WHILE YOU STAY IN THE TRAP

 

The greatest weapon against stress is our ability to chose one thought over another”

‘William James’

 

IS IT YOUR FAULT?

DOESN’T MATTER, ASKING THE QUESTION KEEPS YOU IN THE TRAP

FAULT DOESN’T MATTER, BLAME TETHERS YOU TO THE PAST

THIS IS HOW THE TRAP WORKS

 

IN FACT YOU ARE FEEDING THE DRAGON

YOU ARE GIVING IT WHAT IT WANTS

FUEL FOR IT’S FUTILE FIRE

PROVING WITH EVERY BREATH THAT THE RIGHT ARE EVEN MORE RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING

IT WILL FEEL FAIR TO THEM BECAUSE YOU WERE WRONG AGAIN

THEY WILL NOT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU CANNOT BE NEAR THEM

DO YOU SEE THE BARS OF THE CAGE YOU ARE IN?

HAVE YOU SEEN THE DOOR?

 

ARE YOU STILL LOOKING AT THE PAST?

HAVE YOU TIME FOR A QUICK LOOK AT YOUR RESPONSIBILITY?

YES?

RESPONSIBILITY IS NOW AND IT IS YOURS

 

THAT DOOR IN THE CAGE

 

HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN LOOKING AT IT?

HAVE YOU CHECKED WHETHER IT IS LOCKED?

 

WALK TOWARDS IT

GIVE IT A PUSH

HUH…

IMAGINE THAT

 

THIS ESSAY IS ENTIRELY RIGHT AT PUBLICATION

IT’S TRUTH IS FINITE AND DEGRAGES UPON READING